Tuesday, September 25

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I miss my mom so much especially during this fasting month.

I can still picture her sitting in the kitchen during breakfast and sahur.

I can still remember the dishes she loved eating ie. nasi rawan/laksa johor & sup tulang. We will always make sure she gets what she wants from the Bazaar Ramadhan.

I can still remember her telling me all of a sudden last year to go to Kamdar and shop for new curtains and sofa covers. Not knowing it was her last year celebrating Aidilfitri. Alhamdulillah, she managed to see the olive coloured curtains and sofa covers :)

I miss having her around for family gatherings. She has always been the main person during those sessions of good food and kecohness. Without her, it will never be the same.

Whenever I think of kuih makmur, I think of her. She loves them but when she was diagnosed with kidney failure, she tried to avoid all those cookies as well as kuih makmur. She loves to bake, her specialty was fruit cake and durian cake.

As I was in the train on the way to work today, I cried quietly, missing every bit of her. Oh boy, I thought I was stronger since it has already been more than 100 days since she left us , but no I still get teary eyed whenever it hits me hard that she is no longer with all of us.

Al fatihah.

Semoga roh arwah mama dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yg beriman.

I will always miss you mama.

16 comments:

Cik Puan Sri Quzz said...

now u made me miss my mom :(

dah 2nd year dia tade.

alfatihah to both of them..

Dade Ghost said...

She will live on as long as she is in your memories. Never forget her in your prayers..... Alfatihah for all our demise love ones, relatives and friends...

Nour said...

aphroditekuzz,
alamak,am sorry if I made you miss your mom. I heard a caller calling one of local radio stations today on how "kehilangan" he feels because his father had just passed away and he also said raya will never be the same again. Hmm, I know how that feels like. It has been 2 years for you eh..it must be tough and challenging...You must be one tough cookie! As for me after 100 days, the emptiness and sadness, I still I feel it :(

DG,
Thanks.
Al fatihah to all our loved ones yg telah pulang ke Ramahtullah.

EDDY PURNAMA said...

The first time is always the toughest...but always remember that your mom has never left you...she is always there within you....

Be strong okay...

trueblue said...

*hugs*

Nour said...

Hi eddy sparrow,
Thank you for the kind words. Yeah the first year of puasa and raya without her will be tough, I feel it already...but I guess I have no choice but to be strong and face it.

SO how does it feel like to be fasting far from home?? Rindu family tak?

trueblue,
thanks..hugs :)

Cosmic_GurL said...

Sniff sniff...Ive cried twice today...both about bloggers who lost a parent. I cant say i know how u feel but I can give you a hug and tell you your mom is in a better place

*Hugs*

UglyButAdorable said...

auuwww....big hug nour...big bear hug from me...your mama will always be with you...insya Allah...

Nour said...

cosmic_gurl,
thank you for yr support..:)

hugsss :)

UBA,
Yeah always close to my heart.
Thanks girl.

Theta said...

Nour,
I know it can be hard especially during this holy month and festive seasons.

Take comfort in knowing that you'd always be in her thoughts and prayers, as she is of yours.

May she rest among the pious and the righteous. Amin.

sina said...

we sorely miss the ones we loved, aye?

Nour said...

theta,

Heyya..how is your raya preparation so far? Must be fun preparing for the lil one eh.

Thank you for the kind words and encouragement..:)

She will always be in my thoughts and prayers InsyaAllah.

Hope it is not too early to wish you and family, Salam Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin.

mz ayam,
hello...welcome to my blog :)
Yup, I miss her terribly. How are you coping? Well I guess, we have to move on eh!

Mama Rock said...

it's tough when one has to be strong for the rest. when my dad passed away in a fatal accident, hari raya was not the same though we were sad but at the same time tried to put up a cheerful disposition for my mum's sake. it still hurts.
hang in there nour, insyaAllah Allah bless her soul, aminnnn..

Nour said...

mama,
thank you:)
hmm,raya this year will def not be the same. but kena tabah.

Salam Aidilfitri to you and yr family.

Anonymous said...

I came across your blog while searching for kueh makmur recipe.

I like your blog and this particular post reminds me of my late mom as well. It has been more than 2 yrs she left us but the memories linger forever.

Nour said...

Ann,

Thanks for dropping by :)

Loosing a mother is never easy...the feeling of emptiness will forever linger.