Nowadays, finding the right time to blog is almost impossible for me. Blogging is useful as it helps me have a peace of mind after a long day of hard work and hectic schedule. It makes me see myself in a different perspective. By blogging, I am given the opportunity to pen down my own personal opinions and thoughts in life. In other words, it keeps me sane in many ways. Muahaha :P
Sometimes when I am busy, I tend to forget all those little events that has happened in my life. So, by putting them in my blog, I am able to read them over and over again in the future. It could be something memorable, important, embarrassing or hurtful but then again who cares as life is never fair, we live life as it is. Every little event that has happened in my life matters to me now as I realized that life is short. Lately, I have been receiving news on a few people I know who died unexpectedly. No sickness, No signs or symptoms. They all left without saying good-bye. Well, we all know ajal, maut, jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan. As humans, we can only plan but God knows what is best for each and everyone of us.
One bad news I received was so unexpected that I am still badly affected by it. It all happened when I met an ex colleague of mine for lunch last week. I grab the opportunity to meet up as I was having a course in a building next to hers. As soon as I saw her I knew she looked happy at the new office. I gave her a hug and we exchanged our “how are you doing?”, the all time favourite question eh! The conversation we had was as follows:-
Me : Hey you!!! You look good!! How are you doing??
She : Hey I am fine..**Big smile**
Me : Lets seat and order.
She : Sure…(So we sat and ordered food)
Me : How’s your boyfriend doing?? When are you introducing the lucky guy to me???
She : Started crying (Her tears were falling non stop, body was trembling badly)
Me : Are you okay?? (Shit…what did I say??? – my mind was trying to figure out what was happening etc)
She : We broke up!!
Me : Ohh…I’m so sorry. ( I did not expect that answer but I guess sometimes break-ups happen for a good reason)
Me : I know you must be sad but hang in there okay?? What happened??
She : We broke up and the next day HE died in an accident..(She cried louder)
Me : Oh no!!!...............
She : He was my first love and I can never ever forget him….He was not himself the night he was involved in the accident
Me : Were you with him when it happened??
She : NO…we met for a while and then he left.
Me : I kept quiet. (I did not want to torture her with more questions…I felt for her)
She : I dunno…I feel like things were never over between us…There are so many things I wanna tell him.
(We continued to talk for an hour or so…….)
I hope and pray that she will get through this tragedy stronger as ever. I know she loves him so much and I know it kills her to let him go in memory or in life. So the moral of the story for all of us is :-
Sometimes when I am busy, I tend to forget all those little events that has happened in my life. So, by putting them in my blog, I am able to read them over and over again in the future. It could be something memorable, important, embarrassing or hurtful but then again who cares as life is never fair, we live life as it is. Every little event that has happened in my life matters to me now as I realized that life is short. Lately, I have been receiving news on a few people I know who died unexpectedly. No sickness, No signs or symptoms. They all left without saying good-bye. Well, we all know ajal, maut, jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan. As humans, we can only plan but God knows what is best for each and everyone of us.
One bad news I received was so unexpected that I am still badly affected by it. It all happened when I met an ex colleague of mine for lunch last week. I grab the opportunity to meet up as I was having a course in a building next to hers. As soon as I saw her I knew she looked happy at the new office. I gave her a hug and we exchanged our “how are you doing?”, the all time favourite question eh! The conversation we had was as follows:-
Me : Hey you!!! You look good!! How are you doing??
She : Hey I am fine..**Big smile**
Me : Lets seat and order.
She : Sure…(So we sat and ordered food)
Me : How’s your boyfriend doing?? When are you introducing the lucky guy to me???
She : Started crying (Her tears were falling non stop, body was trembling badly)
Me : Are you okay?? (Shit…what did I say??? – my mind was trying to figure out what was happening etc)
She : We broke up!!
Me : Ohh…I’m so sorry. ( I did not expect that answer but I guess sometimes break-ups happen for a good reason)
Me : I know you must be sad but hang in there okay?? What happened??
She : We broke up and the next day HE died in an accident..(She cried louder)
Me : Oh no!!!...............
She : He was my first love and I can never ever forget him….He was not himself the night he was involved in the accident
Me : Were you with him when it happened??
She : NO…we met for a while and then he left.
Me : I kept quiet. (I did not want to torture her with more questions…I felt for her)
She : I dunno…I feel like things were never over between us…There are so many things I wanna tell him.
(We continued to talk for an hour or so…….)
I hope and pray that she will get through this tragedy stronger as ever. I know she loves him so much and I know it kills her to let him go in memory or in life. So the moral of the story for all of us is :-
- Always tell the person you love how much you love him or her. Be honest and don’t bother so much on your ego or who says the “ I Love You” first. You may never know you might not have the chance to tell him or her later.
- And also one might look so happy on the outside but deep down inside she could be crying her heart out :(
Take care you all. Love makes the world a wonderful place to live in. So don’t waste time and seize the moment.
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13 comments:
Hope ur friend will get better kay
"Be honest and don’t bother so much on your ego or who says the “ I Love You” first."
wow ... this is good! if everybody can do this ... it's gonna be a merrier world.
so sorry for ur fren.
:-(
if you love someone, say it out before it's too late. We never know when the time will come.
I know some of us have our egos, but sometimes you gotta give in a bit... that's my opinion.
Sorry to hear abt your friend babe.. hope she's alright now.
My heart goes to yr fren Nour..That's life is'nt it? *sigh*
Regards to you Nour :)
nzn,
she is coping...Thank you for the kind wishes :)
azer,
yeah it would be a merrier world..just wishful thinking on my part..in reality it might be difficult to implement..:P
my friend is surviving..the slightest mention of his name..makes her cry..so all of us are trying not to say anything that makes her go all sad for now.
angel,
some people say in a relationship you must have a little bit of ego...so that you stand up for your pride and dignity and not end up being treated like a doormat..I wld agree on this. But I also agree with you on the part where we must give and take..meet half way through. NOT give all you have and you have nothing left for you and only you.
Blackfeline,
Hey sista..it is always nice to see you here. Life is just like that. People come and go...but most importantly, the memories they leave for you to cherish!
Thanks sis for your kind wishes:)
kesian, tapi nak buat macam mana.
uuurghh, i had a friend who had the same experience, her bf died in an accident too...so sad :(
Sedihnya cerita. Feel sorry for your friend. I can just imagine how heartbreaking it must feel.
such a sad human tragedy. kesian ur friend tu. do give her all the support and love.
al-fatihah to arwah.
Alfatihah Allah knows best. Even in matters of love.
hello mama,
mama mesti happy sakan..mentang2 VIVA dah complete.
it happens la kan..dah ajal dia.
hey trueblue,
how are you doing??
tula sedihkan...it is so sedih. She finds it difficult to say goodbye..macam tak puas..but I guess dia redha.
hi zetty,
thank you for your kind words, I am sure if she reads all these she would be so terharu. She is such a strong person for keeping it to herself for such a long time.
dade ghost,
you are back...haven't seen u around for a while..how was yr raya? You must have enjoyed yrself a great deal..hehehe
I Agree with you, GOD knows best! The Almighty.
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