Friendships...

I am sure one can have as many friends as they intend to, however to find that special one and true friend is never easy. Friends come and they go, only the true and sincere ones will stick by you through thick and thin.

I have never had problems making friends but I have always preferred to have one or two very close friends that I can count on, rather than having many friends at one go. I had one close friend since university, we got to know each other when we were classmates during A-levels, and later went to the same university abroad. We did a lot of travelling together and spent most of the time experiencing new things in a foreign land. We didn’t skip any lectures by the way. :-P

Even after graduation, we were still close, she was into media and I joined the banking sector. Two different industries all together but that did not stop us from hanging out together during weekends. Personally, I cherish her friendship as she was a very warm, soft-hearted, caring, honest, helpful and understanding friend.

After a year of working, she got married and started a new life. Even with our busy schedules, we still kept in touch. But things got bad for her, her marriage went for the downturn, she had to go through a divorce. I saw how painful it was for her to pick up all those bits and pieces of her life. Especially, when she had devoted all her life and energy towards her husband and marriage. It was not easy at first for her, but she became a determined person in life and stronger than ever mentally, physically and spiritually. I am so proud of her. The divorce did not break her instead it made her stronger. I have always believe that in life, things happen for a reason. Now she is having a wonderful career, loving every bit of it and enjoying life, like how she deserves to. But somehow after that painful experience, she is a very different person.

Whenever I speak to her, if I have the chance, she sounds different, pretty much tied up in her own world. Dunno why, she no longer shows that natural “warmness” she normally has in her. Probably, since she is starting life anew, many stuff that reminds her of the old days should be put aside. Most of the time, she will call me, fix a date for a meet up and somehow when they actual day comes, she will either cancel it or chooses to remain silent. I told myself not to be pushy, just leave it as it is.

She is no longer the friend I used to know. Well, I guess the things we go through in life moulds us into who we are today. Her priorities in life might have changed. I miss having her around though, hopefully it is still not too late to hope for things to be the same as before but as for now, I shall pray for her happiness always. Life goes on and we should move on……