Mungkir Bahagia

Ooo..
Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini
Gerimis duka ku
Menggamit kenangan silam
Resah dan pilu menghampiri

Sunyinya malamku kelam
Pedih kemelut cinta
Dingin kelu bicara
‘Tuk mengungkap rindu

reff:
Sayangku mungkir pada kejujuranmu
Menolak segala bahgia dihadapanku
Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku
Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu
Kukesali

Dikanyut dilambung ombak lara
Sepiku berkelana
Melayari jiwa nestapa
Menggagahi rasa kesayuan

Leburlah harapan cinta
Namun kesetiaanmu
Kugenggam bagai hukuman
Mengheret langkahku

Repeat reff [X2]

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir
Maafkan daku
Kerna ku memungkirinya

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini
Maafkan daku
Ku mungkir bahagia

(Hazami)

Would you settle for less?

I’ve been feeling a little bit down lately. That’s life I guess, one day you feel great the next day, you feel crappy. May be it is just the hormones playing with my body and mind. I hope this crappy feeling won’t last for long.

I got myself a few DVDs to help ease my mind and thoughts. Last night I got to watch the DVD movie, The Break-Up starring Jennifer Aniston (Brooke) and her real life boyfriend Vince Vaughn (Gary). It’s about how a lived in couple goes through the critical stage of their relationship - the breaking up point. Brooke and Gary would fight like cats and dogs most of the time driving each other up the wall. There are several core reasons which contributed to their endless arguments and here is what I gathered from the movie:-

• Brooke’s perception of Gary
• Gary takes here for granted as he refuses to help her with the daily house chores.
• Brooke gives all the energy and strength to Gary ie. Clean the house, cook for him etc, she expects him to help as well.
• Brooke expects Gary to help without being asked. He should volunteer.
• Brooke expects Gary to do all those little things like picking up his dirty clothes and putting them in the laundry basket freely without being forced.
• Brooke feels that Gary should be sensitive to how she feels especially when she is also a working woman and at the same time having difficulties mending the house.
  
  Conclusion:
  Brookes just wants to be appreciated, cared and loved.
  
  Gary’s perception of Brooke
• Brooke is being too demanding, he feels he is trying his best to give her a better life.
• Gary thinks that Brooke loves cleaning and cooking for him.
• Gary thinks if Brooke needed his help she should tell him. How would he know?
• Gary thinks picking up his dirty clothes is just a trivial matter. He feels if he doesn’t feel like picking it up from the floor, just let it.
• Gary feels that Brooke should always tell him how she feels and never to assume that he knows how miserable she is.
  
  Conclusion:
  Gary feels that all those little things required by Brooke are not as important as working hard to give Brooke a better life. Hence that explains why he didn’t take Brooke’s requirements seriously.
  

It is definitely tough being in this particular situation. How much can a person take? Arguing, shouting and screaming with each other every single day? It can surely drain a person emotionally. Some might just talk things through, lower one’s expectations, compromise, go through changes and so forth. Or just live with the fact that the other person can never change.

While on the other hand, one party might just decide to walk out on the other. It depends on how much you are willing to give and take. Or how much can one settle for? I dunno, sometimes being in a relationship with the wrong person brings out the WORST in a person. It just happens. Nonetheless, it can also bring the BEST out of a person if he or she finds the suitable partner. I guess you just have to have some faith.

When night comes.....

Scary as it may be, me and a few other fellow bloggers have found a cosy spot where we share similar interest and experiences in the unexplained world. Real life encounters/experiences. The weird encounters with the unseen world, unsolved mysteries, supernatural forces or the restless souls of the dead! You are always welcomed to share with us your personal experiences as well! For those interested, do check out our cosy spot here.

By the way, we are NOT the ghostbusters okay! hehe :)

No more squids for me please…..

Time flies and before you realize it’s already Sunday night. I had an enjoyable weekend and I wish I had a longer weekend. Hehehe don’t we all wish for the same thing eh! I was in KLIA late Friday night as I had to send my lil sis and her lil one off to Japan for a month of holiday with her other half. InsyaAllah all three of them will be back for good soon. We miss the lil one so much as she has always been the “sunshine” of the house with her adorable baby talks, antics and secret missions. So I guess for now we will have to make do with only the skype and webcam in order to communicate with her everyday.

On Saturday morning, I was in KLCC with my brother and his family. We made plans earlier to watch the Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (Pirates 2) and so that was what we all did that morning. I normally watch movies with friends but then I thought watching Pirates 2 with my family would definitely be so much fun. Boy, am I glad that I watched it with them as they are fun to be with and very “selamba”. My nephew, Ashraf has always been an ardent follower of the movie, so I guess it was fun watching him all thrilled to watch the second sequel. You should see him! He was sitting at the edge of the seat absorbing the story line and at the same time enjoying the awesome scenes. Well, I hope to watch the next sequel with him again It was amazing to see how matured and grown up he is, I told myself, wow, I used to play with him when he was very little and now he is already 10 and he can be my movie buddy. Gosh, I am getting old after all :P

Captain Jack Sparow

OrlandoBloom as Will Turner

I would say I love Pirates 2 more than the first. The second sequel is better in terms of character and storyline. Pretty hilarious too! Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom were brilliant. Oh and the sea monster which looks more like a gigantic octopus, urrgh, was very slimy and definitely disgusting. After watching the octopus and Davy Jones with his crew, I told myself, no more squids for me!!!! Yucks!!! For those of you who have watched the movie, do you think it is worth waiting for the third sequel????? As for the rest who have yet to watch it, go go go!!

Trying to figure the key

Hmm, apart from the pirates and the disgusting slimy octopus, I have always reminded myself not to blog about the Malaysian stars or celebrities because they are NOT worth my effort or time. But this particular topic just pisses me off so much. I refuse to buy newspapers that have Siti and Mawi on the frontpage! Papers are meant for quality news or knowledge not trash. But it was pretty disturbing when I saw an article written on Mawi’s “arwah” father’s outstanding hospital bills. Gosh, that was wayyyy out of the limit. It was the max for me!

Are they trying to make money on other people’s sufferings. Why can’t they just leave the guy alone for once. After all, it is his own personal problem, no one should publish it out in the open. Damn! It is between him, his family and the hospital! No one else has the right to question him. What’s with the tabloid?? The Tabloids/Papers will never fail to say what they publish is always based on facts. But this is not the issue here.

I strongly believe that we as readers should learn to choose what we really want to read. When there is a demand for crappy gossips there will always be a supply for them. They should be sensitive enough to the surroundings. So be a smart reader because eventually at the end of the day tabloids will only give you news that you as the public would want to read.

Oh well, life goes on.

Embarassing Scene...

So many things have been happening in the office lately. Two of my colleagues are leaving soon for better prospects and new ones are coming in to replace them. At the same time, during that replacement transition, I am tied down with massive workload and endless datelines to meet. Sigh, I used to handle my work stress and crazy datelines quite well. But nowadays, my workload and datelines can be very suffocating. May be it is a sign for me to spread my wings and fly away where there will be plenty of room and space to breathe. :-P

Aarrgh, enough about work, there are other things to dwell upon.

Apart from workload, my eldest sis called and told me about her embarrassing moment in KL Sentral yesterday. I hope she is feeling better today.

The conversation is as follows:-
My sis : Guess what happened to me yesterday?
Me : Oh no, what happened?
My sis : I had a hard fall at KL Sentral.
Me : What? Where? The Stairs?
My sis : Not the stairs…it was just on the walking pavement. Can you believe that?
Me : Laaa, how did that happen? Was the pavement slippery? Any holes?
My sis : No, I think my heels gave way. I fell like a rolling ball. Macam buat somersault. So embarrassing!
Me : How are you doing now? Sakit tak? Anyone helped you?
My sis : No, they just looked. Sakit la jugak, I just pulled myself up and walked as fast as I could. I think that contributed to my sakitness.
Me : Take care and if it is painful, go and see the doctor.

I can imagine how my sis felt, because I had the same incident at the LRT last year. Muaahaha. All these embarrassing moments will normally hit you when you least expect it. And when it hit you, you will be left speechless. I kept asking myself, “ Oiit, What happened there”?

My share of the embarrassing experience happened early in the morning when I was eager to close the car door to head for work. As soon as my dad drove off, my heels just gave away and I fall right on my butt. I was not wearing high heels and the pavement was neither slippery nor full of holes. Oh and when I did that particular scene I was wearing a skirt. Schmucks!

Hmm, what’s with heels giving way and LRT stations? Any correlation? I bet many of us have been through some embarrassing moments ourselves at least once in a lifetime. Do you have one that you would want to share with all of us?? …

Do you talk too fast??

Decided to skip lunch today as I am in the mood for some private reading. So I grabbed an old issue of the Oprah magazine and got lost in my own reading land. What caught my eyes later was this article they had on bipolar disorder. Yikes, this is the first for me as I have never heard or read on bipolar disorder. Strange enough, I also discovered that it can be treated only if it is detected and diagnosed properly. It is also defined as manic-depressive illness. It is a brain disorder that causes unusual changes in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. The consequences of bipolar disorder could be failed relationships, marriages, poor school or job performance and even suicide. Wow, pretty scary don’t you think?

The symptoms of bipolar disorder are as follows:-

• Racing thoughts and talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another.
• Buying things you don’t need (Yikes!!....)
• Spending out of control
• Sleeping less and not missing any bit of it.
• Irritable and you shout too often or get yourself in arguments and fights
• Poor judgment
• Flying off the handle
• Very much into socialising
• Have trouble concentrating and focusing
• Feel too confident of yourself ( more tahn usual)

Most of the time, people do not realize that they suffer from bipolar disorder. They could be suffering from it for many, many years until they realize that they have it. It is said to be a long term illness, and fortunately it can be treated . I guess it helps if the symptoms or signs could be detected at an early stage.

Pretty useful info and somehow disturbing to know that apart from those normal depression issues we normally read or see, there are many other forms of mental illnesses. Sad ain't it when it robs of a person a healthy and normal life?

Hmm, let me see, point no.2 definitely gives me the creeps…yikes :-P

Have a productive week ahead and please take care :-)

Tough moments....

Last night, my dad gave us a big scare. It was unexpected and it really caught us of guard. As my dad picked me up at the LRT with my sis and her lil one, I could not detect that he was feeling unwell. As per normal, we reached home and all eager to have dinner when suddenly, my Dad came out of the car, shivering and he kept saying how feverish and cold he was. So we told him to get into his warm clothing. But what happened next gave us a big scare. He got out of the room with a heavy sigh and started shivering badly. We panicked as the first thing that crossed my mind and my sister’s was the stroke symptom. We were checking out his speech, his response, his vision, headaches, any limpness or weakness etc. We got him all warm and called my brother for assistance. We wanted to drive him to the nearest hospital but after 10 minutes, fortunately, his shivers subsided. We insisted that he still see the doctor and do a check up to be sure taht he is fine.

My Dad had two acute stroke attacks (TIA) years ago so we were worried that it could be another one of them. My Dad has this tendency to keep things to himself especially when it is about him falling ill. He doesn’t like the idea of us worrying over his health etc. Alhamdulillah, after checking with the doctor, he is just down with some infection and high fever. He is now recouperating at home and he is definitely banned from durians..:P

Incidents like this makes me go all mellow. My Dad has always been the understanding half for all of us siblings while my mom is the other half, the very strong no nonsense character that always pushes us to do our best. I guess we turned out OK, thanks to both my parents.

I managed to get some info from the “American Stroke Association” that can be useful to all of us. So, here it goes :-

The signs of stroke:-
· Sudden numbness or weakness of the face, arm or leg, especially on one side of the body
· Sudden confusion, trouble speaking or understanding
· Sudden trouble seeing in one or both eyes
· Sudden trouble walking, dizziness, loss of balance or coordination
· Sudden, severe headache with no known cause
Be prepared for an emergency.
· Keep a list of emergency rescue service numbers next to the telephone and in your pocket, wallet or purse.
· Find out which area hospitals are primary stroke centers that have 24-hour emergency stroke care.
· Know (in advance) which hospital or medical facility is nearest your home or office.

Take action in an emergency.
· Not all the warning signs occur in every stroke. Don't ignore signs of stroke, even if they go away!
· Check the time. When did the first warning sign or symptom start? You'll be asked this important question later.
· If you have one or more stroke symptoms that last more than a few minutes, don't delay! Immediately call 9-1-1 or the emergency medical service (EMS) number so an ambulance (ideally with advanced life support) can quickly be sent for you.
· If you're with someone who may be having stroke symptoms, immediately call 9-1-1 or the EMS. Expect the person to protest — denial is common. Don't take "no" for an answer. Insist on taking prompt action.

Love is powerful?!

Love is that special warm and fuzzy feeling that makes one go all mushy and happy. Each one of us must have experience love at least once in our life and I am sure you just love that feeling to be in love and to be able to love another person. I too have my shares in love, have also been in a few heart aches, a few sad endings but I guess I am never tired of love. I wonder how far would a person go in search of his/her true love??

All this thinking about love and selfishness came about early yesterday when I overheard a hot conversation on one of the local radio stations. This particular station has this morning programme where callers can call in to vent out their frustrations on any issues. One lady who called in really pisses me and made me think of how selfish one can be when it comes to love. This was what transacted between her and the DJ, live on air.

DJ : So why are you angry?
Lady : I am so mad with my boyfriend’s wife. The wife is so aggressive (she actually used the malay word – ganas!), I have to keep the relationship under warps for now as the wife is upset with the whole affair. I can’t date much now.
DJ : But I would say you are the aggressive (ganas!) one instead of the wife, as you are the one who is having an affair with a married man not her.
Lady : Hahahaa….(laughing!) yeah but she is still aggressive…I am so angry with her.
DJ : Please find a single and available guy, avoid married man.

The conversation ended….I was fuming mad when heard the way she was venting out her frustrations. Wow, she did not even have the self conscience when broadcasting it live on air. So full of herself that she did not even have the empathy for others. A person like her gives the single female population a bad name. I personally believe that, she would not want to live her life on another person’s tears and sorrow. I have been hearing too many cases of men leaving their kids and wives for other women. But why? How can one be blinded by love? Why can’t we just fall in love but at the same time be sensitive about our surroundings and not be too consumed with ourselves.

Most of the time love is never enough, one should also look at the character, personality, the heart and attributes that a person has. If she could fall for a man who is willing to have a life or an affair with her even without considering how his wife or kids feel, would she feel secured and safe with him for the next 5 or 10 years down the road? If he could do it to his wife, he could always do it to her again and again. As for the married man, if she, the so called hot babe, can just totally ignore the hurtful feelings of his kids and wife, take him away from his loving family then she will always have the heart to leave him for another man.

I am critical when it comes to a person who has no guilt at all when destroying another woman’s precious marriage. Can one have a good night sleep knowing that another woman is crying her heart out the whole night? I dunno, I am no Saint but I would rather lead a simple life with conscience and no guilt attached.

Oh well, what goes around comes around. I rest my case.

Oh no...

This is what happens when you leave a bottle of lotion to a kid!

The damage : Neck and face full with lotion and kid is very satisfied with her looks.

Mission accomplished!

Wonder what would have happened if we left her with a bottle of ketchup..:D

Sisters....

I got this piece from my lil sis and reading it makes me smile, so here is something I wanna share with all fellow bloggers so you too can share it with your sisters, friends, family,relatives and so forth.

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A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter. "Don't forget your Sisters," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older.

No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. "Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too. "You'll need other women - Women always do."

'What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grown-up! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her Sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, Sisters are the mainstays of her life. After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned:

THIS SAYS IT ALL:

Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Men don't do what they're supposed to do.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.

BUT

Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end.
Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you.
Or come in and carry you out.
Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, Auntie's, nieces, cousins, and extended family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I.
When we began this adventure called womanhood; we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead.

Nor did we know how much we would need each other.
Every day, we need each other still.

Singapore madness…

I am back at the office and all I can think at the moment is my bed at home. I had a splendid time in Singapore for the great shopping sale and surprisingly I managed to get all the things I had in my list. The weather was extremely hot and humid, but I guess being a typical female, it did not bother me much. Who cares about the weather when the great sale is on right?!

The madness started of with me getting on the Aeroline bus on Saturday morning with a close friend of mine. After yesterday, I would definitely recommend the Aeroline Executive Coach to everyone. I simply enjoyed their professional service. The journey was smooth, the driver was very skilled and the food they served on the coach was simple but tasty. It was a good jump-start for a 2 day Singapore escapade. Oh yeah and talk about punctuality, Aeroline was just excellent, the coach left both spots, PJ and Singapore right on the dot. No hassle at all. With all the good reviews I have given, I should be getting a free return ticket to Singapore eh??...hehehe.

The pick up point is at Menara Axis, PJ

Arrived at the Waterfront Plaza at 1pm and headed straight to the hotel. The hotel was in the Tanjong Katong area. The hotel was a last minute decision as all the hotels along Orchard were fully booked. Nonetheless, I am glad I chose this hotel as it is near to ‘Geylang Serai’. The short distance made it so much easier for me to buy those awesome crispy curry puffs that I know I will never find them here in KL. Yummy-licious….:D I grew up with those curry-puffs as I used to spend most of my child hood holidays in Singapore since my grandparents are Singaporeans. My verdict of the hotel-convenient, comfortable and very clean. However one setback was the noisy neighbours we had next door. They were too noisy for us as we could NOT get any sleep at 1 am. I was fuming mad, so I called the receptionist assistance. Finally after they got their warnings, we got our beauty sleep. Oh and I watched Singapore Idol on TV, a new group of fresh faces.

The Singaporean Immigration parking bay at the Second link, it looks pretty deserted dont you think?

The cosy spot in the hotel room

We spent both Saturday and Sunday in the city, I was scrutinizing the main malls along Orchard and Scotts Road. First stop was the DFS Galleria, this is the place for branded goods ie Coach, Tiffany & Co, Gucci, Burberry etc. Hmm, I only bought a multiple coloured lip gloss palette from Estee that I really fancied. Galleria I would say caters more for the Japanese customers as they normally display tags with the prices, compared against the Japan market. The Japs were everywhere in Galleria, I guess for them, it is worth buying even after the conversion.

Just couldnt resist the Singapore version of nasi lemak with 'ikan goreng'.

The orchard road

We had dinner at Hard Rock Cafe, Singapore

What I had on Saturday night was Seafood Linguini...

The sales in Tangs, Takashimaya and Marks & Spencer (M&S) was pretty amazing. Encountered a few good deals I knew I could never find in KL. So I went berserk…but managed to control myself a few times :D The Isetan in Singapore has many unique collections/designs of jewellery. They were just beautiful. Gosh, since I have a fetish for this area, I have to admit there was rather a slight damage to my wallet. There were too many malls and very little time to cover. But what I noticed about Orchard Road is that, they have MNG almost at every corner of the road, they have two M&S, two/three same branded boutiques, but then again the things they have differs from one outlet to another. That explains my still aching feet.

A few dangling earrings from Tangs

A few chokers and a wallet from Tangs

I truly enjoyed the ‘Great Singapore Sale’! I had a wonderful trip and hope to come back again. The next time round would be for the good food and the Sentosa Island.

Have a great week you all!

Oh, and I can’t still accept the fact that Brazil will not be playing in the finals. Sigh!! What went wrong eh?